Another sleepless night

This seems to happen more and more often lately. I just can't sleep. And it sucks. It's 2:19 am and both C and I are wide awake. I have no idea how long he's been up but I went to bed at 10pm and couldn't fall asleep until about midnight. Then I woke up around 1am and I've been up ever since. Eh, either way, I'm just trying to make myself tired enough to go to sleep at this point.

There is good news and forward progress on the construction/remodeling front. The plumber was here last week and finished up the rough plumbing on Saturday! And C spoke with the contractor tonight and he'll be here the week of May 18!!! We planned on about 6 weeks before he could start as that is typically how far out he is booking so this is very good news! And because I can't sleep, here is a short (hahahaha) list of what needs to be done around here before Baby McQ, Jr shows up:

• Clean crap out of new half-bath and A's big girl room
  
• Contractor will fix floor in new half bath, put up remaining drywall, put in tile or laminate flooring, replace door, build linen closet
  
• Contractor will put full wall back up in A's new big girl room, install door, and replace attic access door to that room
• We need to pick out toilet, vanity, sink, lighting for bathroom
• Plumber needs to come back to finish plumbing and install above
• Paint, paint, paint (new bath, A's new room)
• Pick out and buy/order A's new furniture
• Move A's room, steam clean carpet in nursery
• Set up nursery for baby
  
• Go through all newborn clothes to take inventory and buy what we need
• Potty training (this should be fun. BAER)
  
• Clean out foyer and move the playroom (which is a corner of our living room right now) out there to make room for all the baby stuff that needs to come out of the attic
• Put A's swingset back together
• Replace decking with Trex (this was a last minute addition b/c we are insane and don't have enough to do already)
• Open pool (and soon!)
• Plant annuals and finish cleaning flower beds
• Rototill veggie garden and plant
• Do Spring shed rearranging (move snowblower, etc)

In between all this falls birthdays for 2 brother-in-laws, my brother, MIL, and my nephew. Not to mention Mother's Day, Father's Day, our anniversary, my brother's Mass wedding reception, BIL's fiancee's shower, BIL's wedding, Memorial Day on the Cape, a week in Truro in July, swimming lessons, concerts, and dinners with friends. YIKES. I'm really unsure how it's all going to get done but rest assured, it somehow will.

We've been working on clearing out some junk so craigslist and ebay have been busy. Our house is just too small to accumulate stuff.

In other good news, we bought a minivan! C picked it up this morning. It's a white 2008 Dodge Grand Caravan with 20K miles. It's so nice to have that off the list! So far, he really likes it so that's good considering he'll be driving it to work and daycare for the next 5 years.

I think that's enough babbling from me. And yes it is babble considering the time. oy. This is not the week for me to be sleep deprived!!!! Work is too nuts!

Sweet dreams everyone! I'm going to attempt sleep again.

It doesn't matter which way you slice it

Being a mom (and a Dad) is HARD. I've been thinking a lot recently about the age old working mom vs SAH mom debate. First, why is there a debate? As far as I'm concerned, most moms choose what is best for their families. For me, working is best for mine. For me to not work means that my family takes a large monetary hit that just doesn't make sense for us. I would love to work part-time instead but it's just not in the cards right now. I also know that SAHM's make that choice b/c it's what is best for their family and I respect that. I'm also very jealous of it some days! haha I guess I just don't understand why some people on each side feel the need to push why their situation is better. Neither is better. Both have their pro's and con's and I wish people could see that.

This is on my mind because frankly, my job blows lately. Blows big chunks actually. It's so bad that I went home last night and had a convo with C about whether I can give notice w/o having another job. With the economy the way it is, that answer is a resounding NO. And I understand this. But it doesn't make it any easier.

That is all. Just some thoughts wandering around in my head right now.