One more day, one more day . . .

Until vacation. I think. I say I think because I really think I'm going to have to do some work next week. It sucks but it is what it is. I'm going to bust my ass tomorrow to do as much as possible and have minimal to do next week.

Aside from being like a one armed paper hanger at work, I've been working pretty much every night this week (except Monday) on a twin size quilt. One thing is for sure, if I ever do this size quilt again, it will be in 4 or 6 pieces that get put together after. It's just too hard to maneuver the fabric around. That should be done next week and it will be a HUGE weight off. This person has been waiting SO patiently and I feel so horrible that it has taken me so long to get it done. I still need to do a sham for her but that is child's play after this. Here is that quilt so far:

Then I need to fix Des' son's blanket that fell apart after washing. That one just pizzes me off like you would not believe. I don't make my stuff half-assed! It shouldn't fall apart. But alas, it did and I will gladly fix it and get it back to her as soon as possible! This is her blanket:

That's it from The Ham. We are Cape-bound tomorrow night so don't expect much from me until early next week! Beach, here I come!!! xoxo and have a safe and happy Labor Day weekend!

A Monday Post

Mondays typically suck. This one wasn't so bad. The weekend was quiet and unproductive but not totally relaxing. I hate those. What did we do this weekend??? Hmmm . . . took A to the playground, drank a lot of wine, went to the Outback (where we skipped the appetizer and I only ate 1/2 my burger while we were there and no dessert), attempted to swim but it was too cold, drank a lot of wine . . . . Seeing a pattern here?? lol

Anyway, onto Monday. Work was nuts but I expected that. I actually got a lot accomplished today and that is good b/c I have to have the 2009 Op Plan wrapped up before I leave on Friday. That should be fun. I already sold one of the Coach's that I put up on ebay and got that shipped today. I'm hoping the other one sells too! I'm planning to maybe buy myself another bag and put whatever money is left towards Sweet Pea Babies and lowering the debt that it owes the house. It's the responsible thing to do but I'll be honest, I hate being responsible sometimes (ok, all the time, who am I kidding?)

Then I left a few minutes early (b/c I was in at 7:30 b/c I knew my receptionist could not be counted on to get in for 7:30 in absence of the 7:30 girl and if you followed that, you get a gold star) and came home and started the pasta for dinner (made the sauce yesterday), folded laundry, and ran the dishwasher. We ate and then A and I went to get a few things at Stop & Shop while C mowed the lawn. It was KEY to get those 2 things off the list o' things to do.

Once we coaxed A into bed at 7:40ish, we took care of some *ahem* personal matters, chatted for a bit, and then (drumroll, please) . . . I finished ALL MY SCHOOLWORK FOR THIS CLASS. Seriously, of the 100lbs of weight on my shoulders, that was about 33lbs lifted. I am so freaking excited!!!

So, that is my super-productive Monday! Yes, I occasionally like to toot my own horn.

Let's hope for a Terrific Tuesday! Oh god, I'm such a dork sometimes!

Oh and to be completely and totally dorkish, I am downstairs on my laptop and C is upstairs on his dual monitor desktop (yeah, I'm jealous) and we are emailing each other. I'm sure it would be easier to just talk but yeah, we are dorks.

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

JACOB IS HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Going at 110 mph without brakes

That is my life lately. It's insane. Work is absolutely nuts and will be from now until whenever. I was told on Tuesday that I need to be in Salt Lake City on Sept 9-10. So now I'm leaving home on Sept 8, going to SLC, leaving SLC on the 10th at night and going to San Francisco until Sunday night as originally planned. I am not happy at all about being out of town for an entire week but it is what it is. I'm just afraid that I will be so anxious to get home that I won't enjoy myself in SF with my brother and J like I should. Stupid work crap.

I'm chugging along with the sewing and school. School is done at the end of next week. Thank freaking Scooby. My goal is to focus on the sewing this week and my final school stuff next week. I will workout when I have time and ambition but I'm not killing myself to do it. I can't. That type of mentality totally shut me down last week.

Ok, gotta get back to work. So much to do, so little time!

The latest!!

The chest tube is out and he's doing great :) He appears to be comfortable and the hole(s) appear to be closed. At this point, we are in a monitoring phase so please, please keep your fingers crossed that he continues to improve and will be home very soon.

My SIL sent out some pics tonight and when I saw the first one where he had his eyes open and looking straight at the camera, I cried. What a beautiful sight!!!

Update on Jacob

I apologize for not updating since Friday AM - I was on the Cape all weekend with limited (aka only when my brother was not on his laptop b/c I didn't bring mine (shocker, I know)) access to the Interwebs.

So . . . Jacob is doing remarkably better since he was transferred to Boston on Friday AM. As of Saturday, he had a feeding tube, chest tube, and breathing tube BUT the hole was almost closed. On Monday they will try and clamp off the chest tube to see if he's still getting air in his chest cavity and if not, they think he will be home by the end of the week!! They are very positive that the tests that they are running Monday will show that he's on the mend.

I cannot thank everyone enough for their good thoughts and prayers. Most of you know that I'm not a religious person at all but even I pray every now and then so thank you from the bottom of my (and DH's whole family) heart. DH just got a text from his brother with a pic of my SIL and Jacob that he took today. She finally was able to hold her baby boy again. It brought tears to my eyes.

My little (and only) brother was in town this weekend for a wedding so that is why A and I headed to the Cape. I'll leave you with a few pics :)

"Mowing" the patio with bubbles

Building with Pops is so much fun!

A with her Pops on the beach

Good thoughts for Jacob

Jacob's lung collapsed last night and he was going via ambulance into Boston. They have determined that he has a hole in his lung. We could use all the good thoughts that you have right now.

Jacob is here (and other ramblings)

My new nephew Jacob was born tonight at 5:34pm weighing in at 5lbs 12 oz and 18" long. What a peanut! My SIL went to the doc today with HBP and a headache so the doc sent her right over to the hospital and said "we are doing the C today". Given her history, it was a smart move. He is being monitored for fluid in his lungs so we are waiting to hear if we will be able to see him tomorrow.

I could go on and on about why I'm so overwhelmed right now and why I had a mini breakdown tonight but I won't. It's just the same old shit. As usual, I take on too much and then can't handle it. I need to survive the next 2 weeks and then my class is over (unless I just stop doing the work before that) and we are on vacation. Just 2 weeks. I can do that right?

It's 10pm at night and I just finished working out. That tells you something. Something has to give.

Fake it till you make it

That is 200% me today with being OP. I SO don't want to be yet I'm taking it one meal at a time. I have to. I'm still trying to figure out when I'm going to WI this week. Obviously I don't want to WI at night where I am normally a morning weigher so that limits me. I could leave work around 9am on Friday and run up and WI but that means no b'fast or coffee until 10am. Um, no. I can go to Hyannis and WI on Sat AM and that is a strong possibility especially considering that A will probably be up at the asscrack of dawn and I'll need to get her out of the house before she wakes up the whole house. Maybe that is the plan. The other option is if we don't go down until Sat AM, i'll run to Milford and WI at 7am and then we can leave. I guess I'll have to see when we are going down and if we are all going or not.

It's just a very blah day. Blah weather. Blah mood. Just blah. But I'm over here faking it pretty well to try and get my act together.

But in AWESOME news . . . A has peed on the potty for the past 2 nights before her bath. Don't know if it's a fluke or what but she likes to sit on it while her bath is running and low and behold, she's gone for the past 2 nights! YAY A!!!!!

The close of another weekend

Time is just flying by way too fast lately. Here it is Sunday night again. Some days I just want to freeze time and others, I want it to fly by! It was definitely a family weekend.

Friday night I did some major sewing and C watched some horror/suspense flick. On Saturday I went to WI and got my hair chopped. Yes, chopped. Well chopped for me. It's pretty short right now and the fact that my husband has not commented on it means he hates it. That's the good thing about hair . . . it grows back. Saturday afternoon, C went with is brother and his brother's GF to a cookout at an old high school buddy's house near us. So A and I got some quality mom/baby girl time. That is always good. We played for a while and went grocery shopping.

On Saturday night we ate taquitos and ice cream and watch The Nanny Diaries (C's choice - he's good like that). That movie got to me. It was all about neglectful parents and there was one scene (if you haven't seen it, stop reading b/c I will spoil it) where the nanny was involuntarily leaving and the little boy was running after the car screaming. I lost it. I absolutely lost it. I was so upset the whole rest of the night. I came so close to picking A up out of her crib and cuddling with her all night in the glider. I just don't understand how people can treat their children the way they do sometimes. And I know it was a movie but I also know that people like that really exist.

Today we did a family lunch at DQ and then had a visit from our friend Heather and her son. It's been a long time since we've had a chance to catch-up so that was really nice. It's amazing how big the kids have gotten!

I just finished putting more touches on the twin size quilt that I'm making for a friend. Honestly, I'm not the least bit happy with the way it's turning out. It's just not even close to my vision and given the issues that I'm having with maneuvering it around the machine, I can't add too much more. I really, really hope she likes it.

I have no desire to workout or count points this week but i know i have to. I just need to force myself to. ugh. C and I need to do get serious for A and for ourselves. So much improves when we are both lighter and it just needs to happen.

Quick Proud Mom Post

Yeah, I should be working as I'm out straight but I needed a little sanity break.

A had her 18mos appt yesterday and she is perfect :) I know all moms say that but she really is.

26lbs 3oz
32.5" tall
19" head circumference (yeah, she's finally ON the charts -WOOHOO for my big headed little girl ☺).

And she passed all her developmental tests with flying colors. The pedi was very impressed with her words.

I'm so proud.

So because we were home early d/t the pedi appt and it was raining, we were all going stir crazy so we packed it up and went shopping. We were in Burlington Coat Factory and I was looking at the vinyl tablecloths when C and A disappeared. I walked around the store a few times and couldn't find them. I could hear A but not see them. All of a sudden, they are walking towards me and A is dragging a Superman stuffed bear behind her. They walked through the whole toy department and that is what she picked up. So for $2 (yes, my baby is a bargain shopper like mama already), I bought it. He is now called SuperBear. Then we took her to Lowes. She just loves running up and down the store aisles. And I love that she gets to expel the energy! lol She was in bed before 7pm and slept until 6:30!

Once she went to bed last night, C twisted my arm (yeah, that was difficult :P ) and we had a rather large glass of wine. Then he ran me a bath and I soaked in the tub with another large glass of wine and a book. Totally much better than working out but I do feel guilty that I missed my workout. I'm afraid if I workout tonight, I'll show a false number at WI tomorrow. I don't know what to do . . . .

California bound!

I did it. I booked a flight to go see my little brother and his gf in San Francisco. I'm so excited!! I'm going Sept 11-14 so just a long weekend but it's enough. I can't, in good conscience, leave A and C home any longer than that. He's being so awesome letting me go for that long! C and I are talking about maybe going out there around our birthdays in March if we can talk one of the grandparents into babysitting :) The thought of flying across the country with A at this age just sends me straight into an anxiety attack. Yeah, I'm a wimp.

In other news, we have our appointment with the Maternal Fetal Medicine Specialist on Sept 23. I'm curious to see what she has to say about how to proceed. And nervous, of course.

Aside from having way too much to do and not enough time to do it all, that is it from here. I need a week's vacation just to work around the house!

Amelia vs The Spaghetti

The spaghetti won :)

Some answers

I just got a call from my midwife and some of my test results are in (from the 12 vials of blood that I had taken last week) and some are abnormal. She didn't go into specifics as to which ones but they are abnormal enough that I need to see the Maternal Fetal Medicine Specialist before we TTC again. Talk about taking the fun out of things!

So, I'm trying to not get down and stay positive. At least we have some answers now . . .

Productive Sunday

So far, anyway. But first, I maintained yesterday at WI. Not unexpected at all and I'm fine with it. I've already been journaling since then so I'm A-OK!

So, we all got up somewhere between 6 and 6:30 this AM and C left a little before 7 to go to work for a few hours. A and I played for a bit then we headed out in search of a vinyl tablecloth (yeah, cloth ones don't work with a messy toddler). Our first stop was Ocean State which didn't open until 9 (it was 8:15, oops). So we headed to WalMart instead. They had them but only in round and we need oblong. So we shopped for a bit and I bought her a Sesame Street place mat and a huge ball.

So we stopped at Dunk's and came home b/c she was so tired and needed a nap. She went down and mama went into action! I vac'd the spare bedroom, mopped all the floors downstairs, cleaned the bathroom, put up a new shower curtain, put towels and bathmats in the wash, and did a few craigslist postings to get rid of some shit. I'm just in one of those productive moods and that makes me happy b/c I've been struggling so much lately. I've honestly been questioning whether I need to go back on meds so a day like this makes me feel so much better.

Ok, off to do more before I lose my productive streak and before she wakes up :)

Thanks Des

My friend Des has started this thing on her blog where she shows pics of her little guy from a year ago to show the difference. I'm copying her (hehe). I'm going to do it at the beginning of every month (so remind me if you see me slacking!) So, here is Amelia 1 year ago - it's amazing how quickly they change!

I realized that I haven't updated on SIL. She's home on bedrest now (but not before going back into the hospital AGAIN for HBP) but so far, so good. If all goes well, Baby Jacob will be here next week (and yes, Aunty went shopping today!)