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Sunday, December 28, 2008

Survived . . .

Christmas. There has to be a way to prepare for Christmas without running around like a chicken with your head cut off. There has to be.

I had such a Xmas "hangover" that i fell asleep on the couch not once but twice on Friday. Thank god A was a good little girl and didn't try to escape. In my defense, I was asleep for all of 30 seconds each time when she would drop something or turn on a loud toy and wake me up. It has seriously taken me all weekend to recover from the week leading up to Christmas (and Christmas itself).

I actually have not left the house in 2 days. I have not even got out of my PJ's today and it's 9:25pm. And I'm ok with it. I just needed a few days to do nothing. We did play a lot of Wii today - mostly MarioKart. I wanted to break out my Guitar Hero that C bought but I knew A would want to play with the guitar so that didn't happen. And I'm just too tired tonight. We un-decorated the Christmas tree so that is done and it's on the curb. I think I"m done with real trees. Artificial is so much easier. If I can find a nice one on After Christmas clearance, I'm sold.

I have 3 official days at work this week and they should all be jam packed. I say "official" b/c year-end is Wed and I have to have December closed by noon on Tuesday. And we are off Thurs-Sunday. I will end up working over the weekend in order to meet that deadline and then I'll take time after the year-end stuff is done. It's the only way I'll get it done.

Anyway, Christmas was good. We spent Xmas Eve at my MIL's and that is hectic but nice. My 5 year old niece was a little off the wall b/c Xmas Eve is also her birthday but I just tried to remember that. Christmas morning/early afternoon was here and my parents came over. Then around 2:30 we headed to my uncle's for my family Christmas with my mom's family. We got A home around 8:30 and put to bed and we were in bed by 8:40. No lie. We were SO tired. A was excellent though and so social with everyone which was awesome b/c she has always been so shy. It was great to watch her. And it's so obvious that Pops (aka Bop aka my Dad) is her favorite. She was his shadow all day. As my mom said to someone (about Bop and C being A's favorites), "Christie and I are waiting for the next one to get our turn." I try not to let it bother me but I blame myself for part of her favoritism. It took me a while to bond with her after she was born and I know that plays a huge part in it. God that make me so sad even 2 years later. Even when she only wants to rock with me lately and have me sing to her. It still makes me sad. Why couldn't I be a better mommy from the start???? OH well, it's nothing I can change now.

That's about it from here. My asscheeks are numb from being a couch potato all day so I'm going to bed. Makes sense right? LOL

OhOhOhOh and Congrats to my BIL, Jim and his FIANCEE Allyson! I knew it was coming but I was sworn to secrecy so congrats guys! Can't wait for the wedding! xoxo

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Thankful

It's 11pm on Christmas Eve and I'm up and blogging. My husband is out doing side work and although I'm annoyed about it, it is what it is and I can't change it. I just hope he can get home soon so he can get at least a few hours of sleep.

I'm very much like my father in a lot of ways and I consider this a compliment. One way we are alike or one habit he has passed down to me is reading the obits every day. Don't ask me why I do it - it's one of those things.

Anyway, I read one tonight for an 18 month old girl who died after a battle with Spinal Muscular Atrophy Type 1 (SMA-1). I then went to her Caring Bridge site and bawled my eyes out like I have not done in a long time. To have your first child, a perfect little girl, only to be told less than 3 months later that she is terminally ill and will die. I cannot even imagine.

A is 23 months old tomorrow and she is my heart and soul. I honestly do not know what I would do if something happened to her. Reading stories like that one just make me realize how important it is to not sweat the little stuff. I need to enjoy my daughter more and let the housework pile up. She is an amazing little person and I am SO lucky to have her. Even when she annoys me and tries my patience (as most 2 year olds do), I need to remember what a blessing she is. She was meant to be with us and I know she is a miracle.

Merry Christmas Baby Girl. Mommy loves you more than I ever begin to tell you.

Monday, December 22, 2008

Another Monday post

Are you sensing a pattern here? lol

T-minus 3 days until the big day. I have 1 batch of cookies baked and 4 more to go. Have I mentioned that these batches are double batches??? oy. My goal was to be at least halfway done baking by the time I went to bed last night but it didn't happen. Why didn't it happen?

1) C was out most of the day yesterday so I only had naptime to bake (I have NO issues with him being out at all, just for the record)
2) BIL and his GF came over for dinner/Xmas with Amelia as they will be in NJ with her family for Xmas
3) Our furnace freaking died at 6pm last night. One minute it was blowing hot air, the next cold air. If I wanted cold air, I'd open the @%^$^@%$# windows!

So, as a result of #2 and #3 above, A was up until almost 9 b/c it was too cold in her room and we didn't know if we needed to go crash at my aunt and uncles' house in the next town. So, no baking last night. But thankfully we have a very responsive repairman who finally got it running enough to get us through the night and he'll be back tonight to replace a part and get us 100% fixed.

Then A was up basically from 2:30-4am with gas. So, we got little sleep. I really need to stay up as late as possible and bake, bake, bake tonight but we'll see how long my body lasts.

Here is a very funny A story (and I apologize to those of you who have heard it already!) C emailed this to me one day last week:

So here is a funny story that I heard this morning from Miss Darlene. This is baby tad. Baby Tad is a fixture in the infant/toddler room. All the kids love it. Mostly the older kids (Amelia, Crystal, Halle, William, Andrew, etc..). Anyway, apparently our daughter is the controller of this toy. If anyone else so much as touches it she sets them straight and makes them realize it is her toy for the controlling and no one else is to touch it. lol If that isn't enough she plays pied piper with it. As soon as she has it in her mind controlling hands all the other kids gather around. She will then start to push the assorted buttons and mesmerize the children with the different songs and overwhelm them with her masterful control of this seemingly innocent toy. Then at her desire (probably when she gets bored of entertaining these pawns) she pushes the right hand button, which you will notice has a musical note on it and a picture of a moon. Yes, you guessed it. It is the "night night" song. When she presses that, all the kids... ALL the kids put their heads down and lay on the floor as if they are going to sleep. If anyone tries to get up before that song completes they feel the wrath. She scorns them with a verbal lashing which will scar these poor children for times beyond their lifetime. (She probably just tells them NO and night night NOW). lol The toy does not get put away until she says it does. Careful not to abuse her power over the children she does give up control of Baby Tad to the teachers upon request... but other children are just not allowed.

I'll try and write again before Christmas but I make no guarantees. If I don't, I hope everyone has a great Christmas (or Hanukkah!)

xoxo

Monday, December 15, 2008

Monday Monday

I know it's been a while and I figure I owe my 1 loyal reader a post (Hi Des!).

The weekend was a busy one. We had Grace's 5th Birthday party on Saturday morning/early afternoon here. Amelia had a great time painting her own plate with Daddy. Then she was clearly in need of a nap so we hit the road with a screaming child. About halfway to Nana's house, we had to pull over so she could puke all over herself and Daddy's car. Fun times. Here are some pics from the party

C and I had his work Holiday Party on Saturday night and that was a good time. You just can't complain about a $10 meal with it includes 2 Surf & Turf meals! YUMMY!!!! We were home by 9:30 so it was a typical late night for us :P

Sunday was just breakfast out and then C went to get A and I went grocery shopping. It was my own personal version of hell. I will NEVER go to Market Basket at 11am on a Sunday again. NEVER. EVER. EVER. I'll starve first.

Anyway, all the Christmas stuff is coming along. C and I had some time off last week and we got a lot accomplished including the cards mailed and a lot of gifts wrapped. We also saw 4 Christmases and it was very funny. This week is just some last minute shopping and wrapping. I'll bake cookies starting over the weekend and through next week. All the dough is done already and in the freezer so that is half the battle. I'm making Snickerdoodles, Chocolate Pixies, Snowballs, Russian Teacakes, and Peanut Blossoms. If I have time, I might do some Oreo Truffles but I'm not holding my breath on those.

I need to dedicate this portion of my post to my husband who completely and totally rocks. Why you ask?? He was given 2 tickets to the Bruins game this Saturday. He told me to take a friend and he's giving me $100 for food, parking, etc! I have the day to myself! So I'm going with my friend Danielle from work. It should be a good time!

T minus 10 days until the jolly guy in red shows up! I'm starting to get excited! I can't wait to see A's face when she opens up all her awesome gifts. I think we went a bit overboard this year but it's all good. We have our reasons and she deserves it even if she's being a bratty almost 2 year old!

Till next time which will hopefully be sooner than later!

xoxo everyone!

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Christmas Chaos

And it's not even Christmas yet. Actually, it's 18 days until Christmas. ARGHHHHHHHHHH!


Anyway, things have been insane both at home and at work, hence no posting since before Thanksgiving. We had a nice Turkey Day until we had to pack up and leave my parents first thing Friday morning to get A to the doc. Poor baby was sick AGAIN. So after 10 days of Amox, she's still sick. I hate winter. It's one cold after another.

We spent this weekend just getting stuff done. We got the yard raked (finally) and all the outside toys, etc put away. Just in time too b/c we got snow today! I made some cookie dough and addressed some xmas cards. And we got our tree yesterday and C and I just decorated it and the rest of the house. We are almost done shopping and just need a few more gifts.

Next weekend is our niece's 5th birthday party on Saturday during the day and then we have C's work Holiday party on Saturday night. I can't believe how close Christmas is!!!

C is off M-Th this week and I'm off Mon and Tues. We are hoping to spend 1 day just getting stuff done around the house and another day we will go to lunch and a movie. I wanted to take more time off this week but work just isn't making it possible. Maybe next week . . .

I'll leave you with some pics from Thanksgiving!