I'll be honest, I have no idea what that means. LOL But I left the office and took a little drive, stopped at a WalMart to try and get a trial size detangler (doesn't exist and I didn't buy a full size b/c I'm carrying my bag, not checking it and really didn't want to FedEx it home. I don't think ITT will pay for that. LOL)
Anyway, I digress. After the WalMart experience (it's always an experience regardless of where in the country you are), I headed back to my hotel and relaxed for about a 1/2 hr. At that point, I was starving. I'm at a Residence Inn so there isn't any room service or restaurant. I headed out and grabbed some dinner (chef salad, beer, and dessert - hey I got the salad!!! lol). I came back to the hotel and emailed Chris and then was going to read. I have a library book (the new Sookie!) that is due back tomorrow so I need to finish it before I land in Boston so I can return it at 1am as I'm driving by the library on the way home from the airport. My plan was to sit on my fat ass and read. I don't know what came over me but instead of doing that, I put my workout clothes on and went down to the exercise room and walked the treadmill for 30min while reading. GO ME!!!
I think my attitude is changing. It's slow and it's not without it's slip ups (hello dessert tonight!) but it's slowly changing.
Ok, it's time for me to shut the laptop and pack so I can get to the office at a reasonable time in the AM. Nighty night all!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Back and around again
Well, it's been over a year. In that year lots has happened. I'll give you the Cliff Notes version because lets face it, you really don't give a shit about the details, right?
In my defense, the girls don't exactly sleep well on a regular basis and I tried numerous times to get back into a workout routine only to be interrupted by sleepless nights. But what is my excuse for the eating? I don't have one. Plain and simple.
I'm not going to sit here and proclaim that I'm back and 100% committed. I'd be fooling myself if I did. Hell, I'm sitting in a hotel room right now far from home. If that isn't a recipe for disaster, I don't know what is???
What I will do is exercise as regularly as I can. I worked out this morning and will do so for the next 2 mornings while I'm traveling. I'm hoping this can spur me into action when I get home (girls, do you hear me????? SLEEP!!!!)
What I will do is control my portions. I will not avoid "bad" foods but I will eat half. The world is not coming to an end so why do I need to eat like it is??? And I will limit my alcohol to weekends only (exceptions being for business trips because hot damn I needed those Naughty School Girls tonight to get me through that incredibly painful dinner! Yes it's a drink - get your mind out of the gutter Christopher)
It's not entirely about losing the weight. It's also about coming full circle on my relationship with food. Why do I graze? Why do I eat mindlessly? Why can't I just stop and say "No, I don't need that". If I had the answers, I wouldn't be obese know would I? But I will find what works for me. My weight may go up and down in the process and that's ok. It's not a race to take it off. It just needs to come off AND stay off.
This will be a process in finding what works for me and what fits into my life. I'm not giving up Date Night In with my husband. I need it. Is it more wine than I should consume in 1 sitting? Depends on who you ask! Do I need the snacky food with it? I don't know, anyone else think Tostito's and wine taste great together? I do.
The only promise I am making to myself is to be kind to myself. Try my hardest and have it be good enough. I will get there. My girls and Chris deserve a healthy, vibrant, active mom. They will get one.
- Baby #2 aka Kiera Lynn entered this world on August 28, 2009. But then again, if you read this blog that means you know me and you probably already knew that.
- I'm losing my job on December 31, 2010 and have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life.
- I'm so freaking busy that some days I feel like I don't have time to breathe.
- We've done more work on the house (yes, shocker, I know)
In my defense, the girls don't exactly sleep well on a regular basis and I tried numerous times to get back into a workout routine only to be interrupted by sleepless nights. But what is my excuse for the eating? I don't have one. Plain and simple.
I'm not going to sit here and proclaim that I'm back and 100% committed. I'd be fooling myself if I did. Hell, I'm sitting in a hotel room right now far from home. If that isn't a recipe for disaster, I don't know what is???
What I will do is exercise as regularly as I can. I worked out this morning and will do so for the next 2 mornings while I'm traveling. I'm hoping this can spur me into action when I get home (girls, do you hear me????? SLEEP!!!!)
What I will do is control my portions. I will not avoid "bad" foods but I will eat half. The world is not coming to an end so why do I need to eat like it is??? And I will limit my alcohol to weekends only (exceptions being for business trips because hot damn I needed those Naughty School Girls tonight to get me through that incredibly painful dinner! Yes it's a drink - get your mind out of the gutter Christopher)
It's not entirely about losing the weight. It's also about coming full circle on my relationship with food. Why do I graze? Why do I eat mindlessly? Why can't I just stop and say "No, I don't need that". If I had the answers, I wouldn't be obese know would I? But I will find what works for me. My weight may go up and down in the process and that's ok. It's not a race to take it off. It just needs to come off AND stay off.
This will be a process in finding what works for me and what fits into my life. I'm not giving up Date Night In with my husband. I need it. Is it more wine than I should consume in 1 sitting? Depends on who you ask! Do I need the snacky food with it? I don't know, anyone else think Tostito's and wine taste great together? I do.
The only promise I am making to myself is to be kind to myself. Try my hardest and have it be good enough. I will get there. My girls and Chris deserve a healthy, vibrant, active mom. They will get one.
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