It's a wrap!

Well I completed Week 1 of Optifast. I didn't think I would make it and I'm not convinced I will make it through Week 2. But more on that later. My first weigh-in was yesterday. Down 5.8 pounds!! BOOYAH. All that success made me want nachos. No, really, there isn't anything wrong with me (yeah right). Any-who, the first week was tough. Lots of cravings to get through. I was pretty proud of myself though. On Saturday I took the kids to Dunkins in between activities and just got my coffee with skim milk (RIP my sweet Stevia). They sat there and drank their chocolate milk and ate their donuts with vanilla frosting and jimmies and I salivated in my corner. After all the Saturday morning activities, the girls and I headed to Greenland so C could work/nap/whatever he does when he's on call. My cousin and her bf stopped by for a visit and my grandparents came over as well. My evil evil little itty bitty grandmother brought over homemade turtles. OY VEY. But I did not have a single one. I even brought some home for C and still didn't have any. For dinner I had some steak (I had to eyeball it as mom does not have a food scale), salad (no dressing so I threw half the steak on top), and steamed broccoli and red peppers. I was satisfied. Now had my mom put out cheese and crackers or chips, it would have been a scene.
 
So the weekend had it's challenges but I got through them all. This week is a much different story. Saturday is my firstborn's 7th birthday. Yeah, I don't know how she's 7 already either. We are having it at a bowling alley and there will be pizza and cake. I cannot have any of it and I'm already angry. BUT not as angry as I am about Sunday. On Sunday we are heading back down to Greenland to celebrate my grandmother and A's birthdays with my extended family on that side. My mom is making lobster mac-n-cheese and I'm making a plain 6 cheese mac-n-cheese for those who don't like lobster. Now a few things to note. First, macaroni and cheese is a food group to me. I could live on it. Throw lobster on top and the angels have sung. Second, this will be day 2 with cake that I cannot touch. Third, I have to somehow eat my Optifast stuff without anyone noticing. I'm not publicizing this diet and I don't feel like discussing it. So you might find me sneak eating my opti products while hiding in a closet. Oh the irony.

Now you might ask why my mother is making this decadent meal and even more importantly asked me to make some as well knowing I'm doing this? Well I didn't tell her until she already set the menu. She's not evil, I swear. Oh and on Monday I'm meeting a friend for dinner. My plan is to just drink water and order a steak with steamed veggies or a garden salad with steak or chicken on top. I'll be ok with that. My issue will be the chips and salsa we ALWAYS order along with the beer. I don't know how to get around that without telling her about it.

You may wonder why I blog about it when I don't seem to want to tell anyone. Well I don't advertise my blog or link it on the FB. It's for me to document my weight loss journey and my struggles. I started it a long time ago (after A was born) and even if I don't blog for 3 (!!!) years, I always come back to it. It's my outlet. If people find it and find out, so be it. For now I only plan to do this for 3-4 weeks and then I will reevaluate when I get back from FL.

I will say I don't think I could have make it through week 1 without the support of my amazing husband. He did all the cooking and kept my needs in mind. He supported me and stayed on his food plan as well. He listened to me bitch and didn't say a word when I got hangry and started taking it out on everyone around me. He hugged me when I needed it. He is my rock.